Well.... Going off for my vacation...

Dammit!! If I'm going to on vacation, I really must put this emotion aside. Keep thinking of what my friendship would become.

I keep asking myself. "Will I lose my best-friend?" and "Can I save my best-friendship?".

Idiot and weak me.... Why do I keep fearing things? Scared of this.. scared of that.. WEAKLING!

Hmmph... I should be TELLING myself. "I WILL NOT lose my best friend" and "I WILL save my best-friendship"
Now I realize how weak I am! I will never let this thing make me weak again.

I have not been going out lately because of self-pondering. I pondered over this friendship thing. I keep fearing that I will lose her... This shitty feeling must not exist anymore!!