Reason... Random topic much?

Well... since the day i started poly, I always didnt want to talk about my secondary school life when ppl asked me abt it... Reason is because it was kind of a bad memory.

Made so many mistakes, no fun at all, joined the wrong CCA... And i was too darn naive!!

My third and last try was choir as a CCA. Zhen zhi asked me to join choir, I got selected for SYF... But... the members were all so paikia! And the leader was a downright jerk!! Ugghh... Not much fond memories of my Sec skool CCA! SUCK! SUCK! SUCK! All the guys were total freaks!! DAMMIT! And the girls were totally rugged like man! Hmm.. Uncivilised beasts...

Computer club was my second CCA dumbass choice... I totally dont get what the teachers were babbling about... And all of them there were guys and had no life.... Dota here and dota there... In my sec skool life i barely heard ideas about going to the movies or playing pool or playing soccer. What I heard most was "Go Com Lab play dota" EVERYDAY! @#$@#$@#$!

I always end up going home early... There was some fun at some point of time... Met with Malay brothers and other people who had a life... Thts where my soccer life started... And i got closer to them instead of my CCa friends...

First CCA was NPCC! It was good but harsh dictator seniors... So i quit... I started a revolution! Once I quit NPCC, a whole lot of people started quiting... Impressive eh?

I was then not really bonded with any of my classes... There were cliques here and there... I was in between... Heh... I could easily talk with the different cliques but, the cliques cant talk among one another... Quarrels happen often leading to crying and bad attitudes. In class, I had a few people whom I got close with. Another malay boy named Riduwan, a soccer fanatic Weijie, a humorous guy named Fu Qin, a literature expert Justin, a photographer Yuhao and a cuddly guy named Jetthro. These 6 people were the people whom I am close with. Trustworthy friends...




The terrible mistake I made in secondary school was lying to the person whom I cherished the most... Why did I lie to Darylene? Why? I still feel bad after sec skool... I must seek forgiveness... She once told me forgive and forget... but... I hate myself for lying to her...
Guilty feeling yaa... I will go ask for forgivenesson my past acts.

My heart feels warm when i gave her that box of chocolates on valentine's day... It made many other girls in my class jealous... =)
The thing that really made me weak was when she gave me hand-made cookies by her... The cookies were nice... Heh.. Those were good times...
I still remember the envy Darylene's friend showed. The reason was because I always gave darylene sweets that i bought every week... And her friends had to ask me for 'em. Darylene = automatic... Other = manual

Wonder why I do this? =S Hope to see her someday... I must apologise face to face...

I missed my opportunity to meet her during Teacher's day... FO committee meeting intervened... Never mind.. There's always another day... Really wanna cry...

So when I reached polytechnic... I wanted to start anew... Make new friends. And I am really glad to have met SPSU people and my class... Sociable people with life... I feel really grateful to have friends like them. I also promised myself to hide feelings towards people... Cos' sometimes this can affect friendship... Better this way right? I think... T_T