Just 2 more days left, well actually less than 2. Lemme just be straight, I'm gonna miss my homies, Zhen hui, SC and Jiahao. These 3 form my trust wall. People whom I know are there when I need them. I'll also miss Duncan, Amanda and Wati. They've been the ears that have listened to me since the beginning. You can never find a crew like this. Gonna miss Nina too, one of the people whom I can openly joke with and talk to.
I can't say the same for session though, dont get me wrong, I'm not hating or anything. but its just that I feel that there's still a huge wall dividing each and everyone of us in session. I dare not openly talk to some of them due to their nature. Example, I dont reveal much to DJ cos of mainly I just cant trust him. I dont tell Mag much about myself cos she already has alot on herself already. I sometimes also dont even dare to talk to Pat about certain stuff. I dunno why but maybe its cos I dont wanna give the wrong impression.
If its like this, then its gonna be hard for me to find people whom I can talk to easily to. Maybe its just I'm afraid of them. Hope overall relations with session people improve. I know in future, their mindset will change and some of them will grow up and out from their Secondary school mindset.
I'm starting to give up socializing with them to find out their qualities. I'm alittle sad someone cant make it for Monday's meetup. Really wanted to meet u guys before I go in. May be the last meetup cos I think I'm not coming for session anymore. Reason being, I know I will enjoy the training in Home Team Academy and I'm looking forward to serving my NS in the Police dept. And I anticipate I'll prioritize my NS more than anything else. Thats why I'm trying to at least see the session people at least one, probably, last time.
If I dont go session, it means I will never see Pat, Jen, Mag, Cory, Mikeh anymore. These people meant alot to me...
If I dont feel that much rooted to the session group, I think I wont be able to uphold my promises. Like going to the same university with Mag or celebrating Pat's birthday at Universal Studios.
What I planned is occasional meet-ups on weekends with Nina. Nina Melanie Kong Yen Yen! Gonna get back at you for guailan-ing me! Hahahaha!!
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